Tears are flowing... I can't stop sobbing helplessly. God I miss him. I miss him too much. Why do I have so sensitive heart like this.... I miss him... I want him. I can wait forever, I just want him. I don't care about his social status, who he is. I don't care about his past, I don't care about me having to wear flat shoes or how I look like an ajumma next to him, I don't care that he's younger. I only need him right now to show up for me. But I can't ignore the fact he won't accept You.... Thus we can't be together. What should I do... God. Beg your mercy... Tell him I am dying missing him in every moment. :'(((((